Wake up, wake up, it's time to wake up.

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I've been wanting to write in my blog for the last month or so, since so much has been going on in my life. But, too many people read it now. I liked it better when there was no one reading it, and I could write about nearly anything, and it wouldn't matter.

I have a job interview tomorrow. It's for a part-time nanny position, which isn't ideal, but if it keeps me in CA, I'll be happy. I'll only be making seven, maybe eight hundred a month, which will be just enough for me to live here. But, if I do not get the job, I will most likely have to drive back to VA in a week and a half.

I really wish I didn't have such a boy-crazy mind. Instead of focusing on the fact that I might have to leave the place I worked so hard to get to, I spend loads of time thinking about guys. When really, there is no point, because I have not found anyone that I want to date. And, I wouldn't be surprised if I remain single for a long time. Please don't login to Formspring and ask me who those guys are. -_-

I've come to the realization that I care about people far more than they care about me. It does upset me a little, but there is nothing I can do about it. I really wanna find a guy who cares about me as much as I care about him, and appreciates everything I do.

I've also realized how important it is to have someone to talk to. When I was younger, I never talked to anyone about my feelings or thoughts, and now having someone to talk to about those things has become really important. I should probably go to a psychiatrist.


Well, I have no other thoughts for you right now. I am going to go play TF2 with Stefan.

-Kendall


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